SO DON'T BE GREEDY NOW!
DO BETTER NEXT SEMESTER!
YEHAAAAAA!!!!!!
Thursday, 26 May 2011
Oh Gosh! All Passed!
Year 2 Semester 1's result is finally out! I Passed all! Mandi also senyum wide wide like orang bodoh. LOL. Passed!!! But the result is ain't pretty. BUT ALL PASSED! That's what I hoped for actually. In fact, it's better than what I actually hoped for.
Monday, 9 May 2011
This is going to be an emo post.
It has been 15 months. They say time heals, but I don't think it applies for everything. It has already been 15 months. My wound has never been healed. It feels like a freshly cut wound, hardens with dried blood, occasionally when the dried blood fell off, I began to bleed again. It happens again, and again, and again.
Sometimes I forgot, everything seems normal. But I think about him everyday. Unintentionally. It felt like there is a mark that I can't rub it off, it is a fact that I will carry on for the rest of my life, it is something that I am conscious about. But sometimes I do forget, but I will remember again very soon after that. It's at the back of my head.
This IS a wound that will never heal. I can't relate myself to anybody else. I do feel different. There are some jokes that I can't take anymore. There are some jokes that I can't laugh anymore. Even if it is a very normal thing to discuss in a lecture hall, I do feel sensitive. But I pretend nothing happened. I do not like self-pity and certainly do not want others to pity me. I do not like to feel pitiful as well. I even made a joke after it or brush it off as if I don't care. I actually do care. A lot. But I just don't want people around me feel uncomfortable.
Anything that relates to death, siblings and parents. That will make a pinch in my heart. Till this day, I can never forget what I have encountered and what I have been through. I struggled hard, indeed. But nobody will ever understand. I have learnt so many things. Lately I have developed a very strong personality, which is wanting to always be in control. I know it may bring some discomfort for some other people, but they will never understand how suffering it can be, for not being in control. I have been there, I felt so helpless. But there is nothing that I can do. Absolutely nothing. I felt so useless. I wished the person who was lying in the coffin was me.
There were times that I wanted to give up. But I can't. Because I promised my mum that I will not die before her. I have to keep that promise.
Sometimes I forgot, everything seems normal. But I think about him everyday. Unintentionally. It felt like there is a mark that I can't rub it off, it is a fact that I will carry on for the rest of my life, it is something that I am conscious about. But sometimes I do forget, but I will remember again very soon after that. It's at the back of my head.
This IS a wound that will never heal. I can't relate myself to anybody else. I do feel different. There are some jokes that I can't take anymore. There are some jokes that I can't laugh anymore. Even if it is a very normal thing to discuss in a lecture hall, I do feel sensitive. But I pretend nothing happened. I do not like self-pity and certainly do not want others to pity me. I do not like to feel pitiful as well. I even made a joke after it or brush it off as if I don't care. I actually do care. A lot. But I just don't want people around me feel uncomfortable.
Anything that relates to death, siblings and parents. That will make a pinch in my heart. Till this day, I can never forget what I have encountered and what I have been through. I struggled hard, indeed. But nobody will ever understand. I have learnt so many things. Lately I have developed a very strong personality, which is wanting to always be in control. I know it may bring some discomfort for some other people, but they will never understand how suffering it can be, for not being in control. I have been there, I felt so helpless. But there is nothing that I can do. Absolutely nothing. I felt so useless. I wished the person who was lying in the coffin was me.
There were times that I wanted to give up. But I can't. Because I promised my mum that I will not die before her. I have to keep that promise.
Monday, 25 April 2011
Samsung Galaxy S2
Just came across a few very funny and intelligent ad from Samsung!
Check them out!
Do you face this problem before? I do! I always park my car aside when I need to talk or text on the phone. Why? Because it is DANGEROUS to speak on the phone without hands-free and sms-ing is the culprit for most accidents that happened on the road!
I face this problem in my own room. Haha. Too cold!
Vivid colours~! And it's still not WATERPROOF!
Do you face this problem before? I do! I always park my car aside when I need to talk or text on the phone. Why? Because it is DANGEROUS to speak on the phone without hands-free and sms-ing is the culprit for most accidents that happened on the road!
I face this problem in my own room. Haha. Too cold!
Vivid colours~!
*But I saw the voice talk function before in the Secret Garden show.
I think its a product placement by LG. LG Optimus?
I dunno. Just hope they wont start suing each other.
Sunday, 24 April 2011
This is what I'm going through right now.
Zero motivation to flip the book and too lazy to update this blog.
Thursday, 7 April 2011
Tuesday, 5 April 2011
Sunset?
took this picture when I was on my way back from oldtown with unsatisfied experience from oldtown pasar. I was pissed off by the stall that sells porridges. I left just like that. I know your business very good, but I do not deserve to be treated so rudely by you. Don't want pong chan you already. Hmmph!
It was a tiring Sunday after photo-shooting for the Media Planning print ad. But the view above blew me away. Can you believe that is from Bandar Baru Selatan? No right? Haha. And I got a free sundae after that.
Felt so much better :)
Passed up Media Planning assignment today. But Comm Theory, Comm Tech and CRM is still pending :(
Haih, another sleepless night.
And I am not barred~!!!!!! yeay!
Sunday, 3 April 2011
Happy 119th anniversary to the ice cream sundae!
119 years ago, in Ithaca, New York, two men invented the first ice cream sundae. To celebrate the day and bring awareness to this event, Google has a special ice cream sundae logo.
The two men, John M. Scott and Chester Platt, first called the dish the “Cherry Sunday” and tried to trademark the term “Sunday.” That never happened and later on it became known as the “Sundae.”
Went to get some sweet treat from McD yesterday, Bear ordered 1 chocolate sundae through McD's Drive-Thru for me. When we collect the sundae,
They gave us 2 chocolate sundaes!
It could be a mistake, or we are just lucky? :D
Just finished my MUET Speaking test! yeay! But assignments are waiting :(
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